Ending My Polytechnic Days

my days in RP is coming to an end. in about 3weeks, i'll be done with school. the only reasons for me to come back after that would be for Dragon Boat trainings and, probably, for graduation.

never has it occurred to me that there is a possibility of it ending in a sad/ bad way. initially, i believed that the close friends i have here in my tertiary institution will continue staying in contact with me, and vice-versa. however, it seems that i'm likely to be wrong about this.

being my closest friend, i never thought things could have gone so wrong. i'm so worried now that the moment school ends, we'll hardly ever see or contact each other again.

i don't want anything like that to happen. and you know that whether or not it will happen, it depends on you.

No You Hang Up

Severe Headache

blur vision.
headache.
felt like vomiting.
felt like dying.
i read online the causes of headaches; listed on a website were depression, stress, severe hunger.
i can only think of one cause, i was simply thinking too much.

i woke up fine this morning, confirming my thoughts.
i guess i'll have to try to let go, but i cannot confirm that i can do so.

Dreaming With a Broken Heart

Pessimism

worried about the future. worried about us drifting further. it's tough not to think of such things, seeing the way things are right now.

i want the old 'US' back. i don't like what we are now. i miss you, i miss us. but there's nothing i can do about anything now, except to wait for time to pass, so slowly, so painfully.




it's only been awhile and my kite seems to be flying further away from me. not exactly what i expected of 'flying high'.

So Cold

the way you're treating me now, it's really hurting. i hate how you're so cold to me. you told me you need time, and i'll give you time. but if this takes too long, or if nothing changes, i really don't know what's going to happen to me.




there's a possibility that the string on the kite might break. but if i know how to handle it, i know nothing's gonna go wrong.

January 2010

the first month of the decade has just been really bad for me. i can only hope the future holds better days.




it's now like kite flying; you let go a little, then wait for the right moment to pull back, only to see it fly even higher.