Still the same

After so long, it's still you I'm thinking of everyday without fail. I've tried to let go, but failed. It's really really hard for me. Sigh.





I really wanna hear you call me 'boy' again. =\

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RPDB

i just finished my final race with RPDB on Sunday. MR 500 was really a blast. i was really disappointed that we didn't beat NTU for the Tertiary gold on Saturday(my very last chance to do so). but on Sunday, we managed to clinch third position for the Men's Open Grand Final, beating all other teams except the National Team and, yes, NTU. though we still lost to NTU, by an even closer margin than the day before, i was really contented because everyone achieved the team's common goal and put up a really good fight.

i would like to thank the team for the excellent ride on the boat for the Men's Grand Final and also for all their efforts in making the results possible. without each and everyone of you, none of that could have happened. continue to train hard, because the longer you stay in 'hell', the faster you'll reach 'heaven' to reap the benefits.

i also hereby express my gratitude to JD for his guidance to the team. a soft-spoken and humble coach that has brought the team to even greater heights, continuing the legacy Steve and himself created for the team since the start of RPDB.

i wish the team all the best. in future, we won't be teammates, but opponents. i still want to see the team rise, but i guarantee you, i will train even harder from now to beat you guys if we ever meet on the race course. no hard feelings though. =]





i leave you all with a few quotes that may help in motivating yourselves to train harder:

"success comes only if there's HARDWORK and SHEER DETERMINATION"

"one's attitude determines two possible results, SUCCESS or FAILURE"

"you CONSERVE, you LOSE"

Finished

everything's gone and nothing will ever be the same again.

"don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened"

easier said than done, but i'll have to try.

Thoughts In My Mind

my final race for RPDB, MR 500, is coming this weekend and i know i should just focus on it. but there's so many thoughts, outside Dragon Boat, running through my head right now.

things are not looking good. i have a really bad feeling about something, just hope that i'm wrong.

imy, A LOT.

sigh.

What's Wrong?

tears rolled down my cheeks as soon as the texting stopped. i have no idea what's going on now.

sigh.

cheer up.

Fatigue

i'm feeling the effects of burnout, as a result of overtraining i guess.

recently, i made the decision, along with Christo, to paddle for RP and SAFSA; Louis paddling for SAFSA only. both teams are training on weekends, RP in the morning, SAFSA in the noon. and because both sides are starting to pick up the training volume and intensity, i'm getting more fatigued.

i'm just really worried that i won't be able to pull through this. but i really don't want to let go of either team. for now, i just got to keep finding motivations to keep me going.

it's POL-ITE and SDBF glory i'm looking for, and i will push hard enough to get them.

Ending My Polytechnic Days

my days in RP is coming to an end. in about 3weeks, i'll be done with school. the only reasons for me to come back after that would be for Dragon Boat trainings and, probably, for graduation.

never has it occurred to me that there is a possibility of it ending in a sad/ bad way. initially, i believed that the close friends i have here in my tertiary institution will continue staying in contact with me, and vice-versa. however, it seems that i'm likely to be wrong about this.

being my closest friend, i never thought things could have gone so wrong. i'm so worried now that the moment school ends, we'll hardly ever see or contact each other again.

i don't want anything like that to happen. and you know that whether or not it will happen, it depends on you.