Down

This is probably the only place I can speak my mind with the least people knowing.

I've came from one of my high points of my life, into one of my lowest.

Simply said, things are not going my way.

I'm having problems with my friends.
I'm having problems maintaining what I do best, paddling.

It may seem like a really really short list but that's about the whole of my life, Dragon Boat and friends. My family's something I'm not too worries about because I know I can get help from my parents, or my mum at least.

See, my 21st birthday is coming and many have asked why I didn't hold a party. Trust me, 21st birthdays are really big deals. My usual answers would be that I don't have many friends around. Holding a party would only make it look worst and even if there's a hundred guests, most would go like "HAPPY BIRTHDAY TERENCE!" and then 'munch munch munch' then "BYE! THANKS AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY AGAIN!" I'm guilty of that too when I go to birthday parties, so I know.

Friends are really easy to find, but true friends aren't. Sadly, I'm probably still in search of that. At times maybe I thought "yea, he/ she will be like my true friend and will be there for me". Well I would say I'm wrong most of the time. Sad fact of life.

Then comes Dragon Boat, an integral part of my life. I would say my morale and confidence have been hit after being 'benched' for the CCWC 2000m race. Since then, I felt like crap and have been trying to push myself more to achieve a 'higher level of paddling', so to speak. Today's training just hit me once again as I realise the tough climb up the ladder. I thought I had a certain standard, but I was wrong.

I'm utterly disappointed in myself and I can only pray that I can stay strong and passionate to the sport. I actually, for the first time in a VERY long while, felt like quitting.

I don't have people I can talk to about such stuff, so I'm typing everything down here. I'm not expecting replies or advices of any sorts also.

I can only depend on God and myself to get myself out of this.

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Club Crew World Championships 2010, Macau

went up to Macau for the 7th CCWC, where the strongest dragon boat clubs meet up and compete with each other for the title of World Champions.

SAFSA participated in the U23 category, facing 3 teams from Canada and 1 team each from Macau and Hong Kong. these opponents, though unheard of in Singapore, were no push overs as they tried time and time again to beat SAFSA. successfully, we managed to secure not only podium standings for all events, which are 2000m, 200m and 500m, but 1st placing for everything.

i'm proud to have paddled for SAFSA in the 200m and 500m races. it was an honour to be with such a strong team with such dedicated and passionate paddlers.

the end of CCWC marks my first 2 Golds with SAFSA.

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SDBF 2010

my very first race for SAFSA. high expectations, rather high confidence.

our greatest nemesis were Mountbatten. we knew it would be a tough fight. but we thought we could retain the title. despite the effort, desire, we failed to secure a Gold, and had to settle for Silver.

are we really lesser than them? does having that many Nteam paddlers make a difference? why is it a club team overseas beat intimidating, results producing national teams then? we were good, but they were better.

this feeling sucks. i'll remember it, take it, and shove it up my next opponent's ass.

I will not settle for a Silver. the next SDBF, WATCH OUT.

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Once Again

I've realised after the dream I had last night, that I haven't move on.

I miss you. =[

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stop

let love find you, not the other way round.

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Shooting stars

If I could really wish upon a star, you would be what I would wish for.

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What do you do when..

.. You love someone you're not supposed to?

.. You can't let go of that person?

.. That person's happy/ happier somewhere else?





It's not that I haven't tried hard enough, but you just keep popping back again and again.

Sigh.

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