Severe Headache

blur vision.
headache.
felt like vomiting.
felt like dying.
i read online the causes of headaches; listed on a website were depression, stress, severe hunger.
i can only think of one cause, i was simply thinking too much.

i woke up fine this morning, confirming my thoughts.
i guess i'll have to try to let go, but i cannot confirm that i can do so.

Dreaming With a Broken Heart

Pessimism

worried about the future. worried about us drifting further. it's tough not to think of such things, seeing the way things are right now.

i want the old 'US' back. i don't like what we are now. i miss you, i miss us. but there's nothing i can do about anything now, except to wait for time to pass, so slowly, so painfully.




it's only been awhile and my kite seems to be flying further away from me. not exactly what i expected of 'flying high'.

So Cold

the way you're treating me now, it's really hurting. i hate how you're so cold to me. you told me you need time, and i'll give you time. but if this takes too long, or if nothing changes, i really don't know what's going to happen to me.




there's a possibility that the string on the kite might break. but if i know how to handle it, i know nothing's gonna go wrong.

January 2010

the first month of the decade has just been really bad for me. i can only hope the future holds better days.




it's now like kite flying; you let go a little, then wait for the right moment to pull back, only to see it fly even higher.

You're Always On My Mind

thanks for everything.
the happiness i got is incomparable to whatever anyone else has given me.
although it's over, no one knows what the future holds.
before we left, i gave you a pass, an immunity and only you and i know what it is for.
i'm sure you know when to use it, and you're free to do so anytime.





girl, for as long as i love you, i'll always welcome you back into my life.

Like A Drill In My Heart

it's hurting me and it's worst when it seems you don't realise.